Li'l Star

There is nothing special about me
I am just a lil star
If it seems like I'm shining brightly
It's probably a reflection of something you already are

I forget about myself sometime
When there's so many other around
When deep inside you feels darkest
That is where I can always be found

Just keep trying and trying
It's just a matter of timing
Though the grinding is tiring
Don't let 'em stop you from smiling

Just keep trying and trying
Sooner or later you'll find it

It's surprising how inspiring
It is to see you shining
Cause in the dark of the night you're all I can see
and you sure look like a star to me

There is nothing special about me
I am just a lil star
If you try to reach out an touch me
you'll see I'm not really that far
I may not be the brightest nor am I the last one you'll see
But as long as you notice, that's just fine with me
Everything's just fine with me

There is nothing special about me
I am just a lil star
I've been running and jumping, but barely
Getting, getting over the bar

I plan on being much more than I am
but that's in do time
But until then I'm guilty,
and being humans my crime
Being human that is my crime

It's surprising how inspiring
It is to see you shining
Cause in the dark of the night you're all I can see
and you sure look like a star to me

(Kelis feat. Cee-Loo)

In times like these

In times like these
the snow dancing in the frosty air
In times like these
the wind whispering in my ear, just a little too loud
In times like these
my heart questioning what it feels, my mind feeling what it thinks
In times like these
I wish for a blue moon peeking out my window
In times like these
I wish I were in a place I never knew, with those I met just in dreams
In times like these
I wonder what is truth, what is wisdom, what is love
In times like theseI need answers
In times like these
I need You
In times like these

On the 23

My friends are getting married.
What a happy news, isn't it?

But... OH MY GOD!

This is the friend I sang together with when we were 12 years old. This is someone I used to be real crazy with, that one that with her I once laughed so loudly til we couldn't manage to laugh any louder... And there she is now. A woman with a great career ahead and her soulmate beside.

She reminds me of where we are at this moment: 23, on the gate of being a grown-up- where the responsibilities of being a financially independent individual and a member of society called family arise. When I and another good friend of mine talked about it, to be honest, we were bloody scared. In the state of jobless single women, we became so desperately panic. How on earth we are to be on her shoes when everything in front of our eyes is just so blurred.

To my friend, I'm proud of you, and I'm truly happy for you...

ps: and I believe that in You I'll be ready in time, just in time

Why blogging

Six months- since my last posting
and it makes me smile re-reading all those earlier postings
Remembering all those stuff I've done
all those feelings I once had
how I've ever thought that way
how once all those happened
and how far I've indeed gone
All makes me amazed
So I think I'll keep blogging :)

I am a Donut!

You Are a Caramel Crunch Donut

You're a complex creature, and you're guilty of complicating things for fun.You've been known to sit around pondering the meaning of life...Or at times, pondering the meaning of your doughnut.To frost or not to frost? To fill or not to fill? These are your eternal questions.

What Donut Are You?

Be my everything

A very pretty crystal glass
A kiss from the sun
And all the colour in the world dancing beautifully
When it broke into zillion pieces,
can we still see the dance?

EVERYTHING

God in my living

There in my breathing

God in my waking

God in my sleeping

God in my resting

There in my working

God in my thinking

God in my speaking

Be my everything

Be my everything

Be my everything

Be my everything

God in my hoping

There in my dreaming

God in my watching

God in my waiting
God in my laughing

There in my weeping

God in my hurting

God in my healing

Christ in me

Christ in me

Christ in me

the hope of glory

You are everything

Christ in me

Christ in me

Christ in me

the hope of glory

Be my everything

(Tim Hughes)

My biggest failure

I hate failure.

Unfortunately, I just had the biggest one in my life until today.

There was this job in this company that I really wanted, especially now, that I know that I don't get it.

The road wasn't smooth, but I was able to slide myself into the last stage of the selection process. So I thought, if I had been lucky so far, perhaps God wanted me to go this way. I started to think that maybe I was really going to get it.

Until today, I received the news. I was rejected.

And at that very moment I just couldn't feel anything.I was numb.

It was my fault. I should know that I didn't do good with my first interview, and I should have had learnt from it, not repeating the same mistake with the last interview. But obviously I didn't do that. I repeated the same silly mistakes, and I guessed the partner with whom I had the last interview with, could not be convinced to take me as part of the team.

But yeah... it happened. It's just that it hurts me more than I thought. I wish that it's just a nightmare, or that they made a mistake. But obviously it's not and they didn't.

I know that I have to accept this. Stand up tall, and keep going.

But right now, let me relieve this pain first...